Thursday afternoon I was laid off from my little school.

Enrollment is abysmal, and there aren’t enough students to warrant three classrooms.

I’d be lying if I said it wasn’t a complete shock. I’ve worked there for 10 years. I’ve moved the little school to four different locations. I’ve taught in a total of seven classrooms. I’ve spent spring breaks and Christmas breaks moving the school. I brought my baby to school when a new hire didn’t work out and they needed a teacher.  I led a week-long “field trip” at the local living history museum by day while moving into the “almost” finished new building by night. I’ve spent hours on the phone with parents, talking them off the ledge. I’ve left my own kids in daycare too long to finish “just one more thing” in my classroom, or to enter just one more item into the school fundraiser. I’ve spent summer days shopping with my own money in anticipation of the new school year.

I’ve gone in early and stayed late.

When I think about all of that, I get a little sad.

But when I think about the future? I get excited.

I am EXCITED for BlogHer. I now have a purpose and mission, more so than to just have fun.

I am EXCITED that I will have one more week now with MaM before she starts (gasp) KINDERGARTEN.

I am EXCITED that I will drop MaM off and have a whole day with just Jr.  Some time away from his older sister will be good. Some time, just with my boy, will be Fabulous.

I am EXCITED that the world is full of possibilities. I’m not sure where it’s going to lead me, but I have a feeling that it’s going to be good.